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The Brave One / Spring

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 28, 2008, 1:10 AM
Wow... I just got done watching The Brave One and I have to admit... It touched home... I guess the closer we get to the end of May, the more I get to thinking about how it's been a year since the robbery.

Don't get me wrong. I know I wasn't half as beat up as Jodie Foster's character. Maybe about a tenth of what she got, but... when you're a victim of violence of any kind, it doesn't change the violation that you feel. Whether it's being beaten to near death or a bloodied lip and lumps on the head. You're still the victim. You still get that same fear to relive the event... to dwell in the same place that it happened... to go through the same motions of that day or night... You still breathe heavy, your pulse races, your heart pounds when you suddenly find yourself near someone who reminds you of your attacker. The same delerium takes over and it's like she said - you feel like a stranger in your own body. You never thought you were capable of feeling such fear. And how do you get over it? You don't. You live with it. You can supress it, but it never really goes away. It's just something that lies within all of us, and that is why everyone feels the same after being attacked like that...

Something else she mentions in the movie is how she knows the cops are the good guys, and she says "But why doesn't it feel like that?" That's another thing that I had felt, too. And STILL feel sometimes... Like when people ask me if I was able to pick him out of the lineup? I tell them the truth, that I picked the wrong guy, and I know they probably don't MEAN to make me feel bad about it, I do. It's like they give me a look as if to say if I couldn't tell them apart, then do they even have the right one on trial? But I know it's him. When I saw him in person I knew it was. Like she said while she was flipping through the pictures - all the faces start to become a blur. That movie really did their research to get all of this right like that. It makes me wonder if the writer had been a victim, too???

I can't believe it's been almost a year since it happened... I often wonder what the story is behind it all. Why did he have the premeditated idea to go out and rob someone that night? Did he NEED the cash? Was his grandma sick? Or was it just for some selfish reason? A sick addiction? Why? I wish I knew the story. Sometimes I wonder if he ever wants to talk to me and tell me that he's sorry... But then again? Probably not. The last I heard, he was still pleading innocent. The last I knew, he was supposed to take a lie detector test. I still haven't heard how THAT went. I STILL can't believe that I got into the same elevator as him on the last court date I went to. Of all people to step into an elevator with!!!

ANYWAY- the point of this blog was to talk about Spring. This weather has been pretty nice. I finally got to buy a swingset for Tric, and she LOVES it. She was laughing SO HARD on the swing! She doesn't really care for the slide that much, but she likes the sea-saw pretty well. I also got a small inflatable pool that I put colored balls in, and that's the ball pit. I got her a bubble machine, and that put out about a thousand bubbles all at once! It was pretty awesome. I told Adam that we HAVE to use that for her birthday party! Speaking of... Wal-Mart got rid of all the Tinkerbell stuff, so now I HAVE to order it onine. I HATE that store. It just keeps going downhill...

Speaking of parties, Mary knows about her surprise baby shower now. SOMEONE just couldn't keep it a secret, but at least I'll know who to invite now. It was hard having to pick and choose people before because I don't know who her friends are. Now she can decidede for herself.

That's the update for now. I want to get this other movie watched before it gets too late, but I'll try to write again soon.

  • Mood: Tired

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 25
  • Current Residence: Perryville, MO 63775
  • Interests: singing, acting (Broadway), drawing, writing, roleplay, costumes, Bret McKenzie, my time with Tric
  • Favourite movie: LOTR (all 3) The Cell, Powder, Edward Scissorhands, Practical Maigc, The Craft, Silence of the Lambs
  • Favourite band or musician: Evanescence, Marilyn Manson, NIN, U2, Linkin Park, Sum 41, No Address, Seether, My Chemical Romance
  • Favourite genre of music: Just about everything. Call me eclectic!
  • Favourite artist: Jonothan Earl Bowser, Linda Bergkvist, and all my favorites here at DA!
  • Favourite poet or writer: Terry Goodkind, Edgar Allan Poe, Clive Barker
  • Favourite photographer: tvds, bionic7, BlueBlack, ThePhotographer (all DA artists) :)
  • Favourite style of art: Linda's stuff kicks ass! Soooo beautiful and soooo talented. Some of you other guys too. Nice s
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: I usually just use Windows Media Player and listen to songs from my playlist
  • Shell of choice: The spiral ones. Like the ones my hermit crabs have.
  • Wallpaper of choice: anything with my baby girl on it!
  • Skin of choice: the pale realistic skin (for my Sims 2 game :p lol)
  • Favourite game: The Sims! I theme mine in Lord of the Rings (uber geek over here! lol)
  • Favourite gaming platform: my PC :-p
  • Favourite cartoon character: Wanda and Cosmo!!! Fairly Oddparents ROCK!
  • Personal Quote: Everyone is a book of blood. Wherever we're opened, we're red.
  • Tools of the Trade: Anything available. You can do so much with just about everything!

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*imaginedmoments:iconimaginedmoments: 5 days 16 hours ago
:wave: and many thanks for your recent favs Candice, most appreciated :hug:

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*Sleetwealth:iconSleetwealth: Jun 21, 2008, 5:24:38 PM
Thanks for faving ladyblue lycan
~chocobo8k:iconchocobo8k: Jun 19, 2008, 2:11:19 AM
Thanks for the fav :D
*MorbidiaMorthel:iconMorbidiaMorthel: Apr 26, 2008, 4:32:27 PM
Thank you so much for the :+devwatch:...Have a nice day...:heart::blackrose:
~CaribbeanMouse:iconCaribbeanMouse: Apr 14, 2008, 2:08:49 PM
Hey! Thanks so much for the fave!
~A-l-a-s-s-e-a:iconA-l-a-s-s-e-a: Apr 14, 2008, 4:31:30 AM
thanx a bunch for the fav!! :sun:

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~Shinobinaku:iconShinobinaku: Apr 12, 2008, 10:38:50 AM
Thank you so much for the :+fav: and :+devwatch: :aww:

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~blastnova:iconblastnova: Apr 7, 2008, 3:55:53 AM
Nice gallery!!

I like! I like!

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*Gothic-Moonlight:iconGothic-Moonlight: Mar 30, 2008, 10:19:08 AM
thank you for the favourites =D
~MJ84-StockPhotos:iconMJ84-StockPhotos: Mar 27, 2008, 4:57:53 AM
Thank you for the :+fav:

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~Elven-38-Stone:iconElven-38-Stone: Mar 24, 2008, 9:29:54 PM
Thanks for the fav! :D

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~MS-Foto:iconMS-Foto: Mar 20, 2008, 8:09:02 AM Mood: Thanks
Sincere Thanks for the fav and add....

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~el-fio:iconel-fio: Mar 20, 2008, 4:41:28 AM
thanks for the favs :)

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*Yuhon:iconYuhon: Mar 18, 2008, 12:35:21 PM
thank you for the watch :hug::rose:

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*imaginedmoments:iconimaginedmoments: Mar 14, 2008, 2:14:06 PM
lol, well I appreciate you taking time to look at my art and the support you've given me :hug: Good luck with the other 4,500 pictures ;)

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~X-Enigma-X:iconX-Enigma-X: Mar 14, 2008, 3:19:19 AM Mood: Humor
You thank me all the time, but I'm just catching up on about 2 years of stuff I never looked at until now. lol

Thanks for all the comments, though! You can expect a lot more favs as I go through the other 4,500 pictures I have left to look at.
*imaginedmoments:iconimaginedmoments: Mar 13, 2008, 5:09:24 PM
Thank you for your recent fav ;)

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~requiem-star:iconrequiem-star: Mar 12, 2008, 9:18:23 AM
AWWW thanks so much for all the favs! You are so sweet!

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*imaginedmoments:iconimaginedmoments: Mar 12, 2008, 6:15:33 AM
Many thanks for all of your recent favs on my art Candice, most appreciated :)

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=kawaiimon:iconkawaiimon: Mar 12, 2008, 4:51:32 AM
Thanks for the fave and watch. :D
*JTphoto:iconJTphoto: Mar 10, 2008, 11:26:05 AM
Thanks for watching me! =)

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*Gothic-Moonlight:iconGothic-Moonlight: Mar 10, 2008, 11:23:14 AM
thanks so much for the faves =)
*imaginedmoments:iconimaginedmoments: Mar 10, 2008, 7:14:22 AM
Hello Candice :) Many thanks for all of your recent favs, most appreciated my dear :hug:

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*imaginedmoments:iconimaginedmoments: Mar 6, 2008, 9:24:22 AM
Many thanks for all of your recent favs Candice, most appreciated :hug:

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`carolinabarajas:iconcarolinabarajas: Mar 5, 2008, 12:27:48 PM
thank you so much for the favs :hug:

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